Emptiness in the veins...

Dear Diary,

Since some days, i have a strange feeling in my veins and it is hard for me to understand and explain it correctly.
Of course, i know my blood is connected to my protector and then, i am able to feel his mood, his temper. My blood ? Or may be my soul ? No, no, no ... i don't know how it works and i still wonder why i am still so reactive and sensitive... I did not meet my protector since some days.
I SHOULD FEEL BETTER ! ... Please why i am feeling like this ? Why it tickles my veins, worse... it burns.

It is so hard to live, i feel his presence, his feelings, his mood.. and this last day, his desire to stay alone, in peace.
Oh god, Diary, it was like a rejection ... i turned back and left the Arsenal, feeling emptiness in my veins.

Emptiness in my veins....