New job...

Dear Diary,

I decided to work at Bordello to get some new skills and help myself to manage my fears and the odd reactions of my body. Of course, the Primus Anton took me under his wing. For now, he is patient and very protective.
As i know some medecine knowledges, the Primus will certainly take me for some medical works. I'm lucky that i spent a lot near my father, in his pharmacy... he teached me a lot. Perhaps i am saved from Bordello's hard job... All i studied at the Orphanage's library will finaly helps me.

No protection.

Dear Diary,

Times change and a lot of things change for us, Borghesia. If we don't work for the Court by renting my blood, we are not protected by its rules... We become a prey like all paesani.
And now, it is worse ! Lord Zarek, my protector, left for some long travel and then, the last day we met, he showed me what i am : a simple toy. Yes, i am just a toy... He tried to get me fil this awful blood vat but i struggled badly and, upset, he just used my sensitive desire to get me back at my place, the human pet.

So, i decided to take care of myself and stop to look for a Chosen's protection. I will belong to no one !
Now, i need to find a way to tame my fears... I need to control my boday and feelings. Perhaps i should go back at the Bordello and find a discret job there... To listen the talks of the girls.